Therapy

I had written before on my old blog about how the net could be a warm place for people like us. That eventhough the net is full of pretenders and role-players, there are still many people who are genuine and sincere.

I have proven that again last night when many of you shared kind words with me through my comment box and took time to chat with me via YM. I was really touched by your sincere efforts to console me in my time of distress. I am so happy to meet real people on the net. You don't know me personally but you shared with me my misery. You know that I need you guys and you never failed me. That's why eventhough I am in this stage of misery, I know I 'll go forward because of the thought that there are people like you ready to help me find my way.

Many thanks to Sinta, Chi, Ayeza, Vea, Jerald, CheR, Tricia, Ivy, Ryx, Pao, Johanna, Teng, Abster, Margaux and Ley for giving kind words on my comment box and Cha too on friendster.

To CheR, Tricia, June and Abi for giving their time and chatting with me via YM.

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To the question, How am I? Honestly, I am still disoriented now since Tiez and I separated. Obviously, I'm still feeling the pain because it was just recent and I am still on the point that even a blank wall would remind me of her. I am still praying that this is just a nightmare, that tomorrow when I wake up everything will just be like the way during our happier days.

She does not know that I have a separate blog already. And I hope she doesn't find it. She thinks I've ceased the old blog and does not know I put up a link going here. I don't want her to see me wallowing in agony about her absence.

When I and CheR chatted, she mentioned about blogging as therapy. Blogging is release. This is a venue for me to shout that I am vulnerable and yes, I do want Tieza back eventhough it won't happen. Not in the nearest future. (See, I am still hoping. Pathetic, don't you think?)

But I know I should move on... with or without Tieza in the horizon. So for the meantime, I'll be blogging much alright. I hope you guys be my shrink. I need therapy.


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UPDATE : I just finished writing this piece when Vea took time and buzzed me via YM. We chatted for a long time and she was really a dear. Very sweet near-to-be-debutante. She had lots of stories to tell and honestly, I enjoyed the conversation too much that I forgot to wallow already. Vea, thank you very much. You are a princess :)

CheR also buzzed me again to check how I was doing. Of course I won't put what we have talked about because she'd kill me. She is now my official love guru. Haha. Thanks very much CheR.

This is what I was just writing about. Meeting bloggers who care for their fellow bloggers. The net (especially our blogging community) is my alternate universe. But unlike an alternate universe with fictional and surreal characters, my universe is full of people like you. People who care. People who empathize. People who have their own stories to share. I am so happy and honored to have all of you guys. Keep me in therapy.