Giving the world a "fuck you" sign

Looking where I am today, I realize that this is a far cry where I expected myself to be years ago. I don't want where I am and I don't know how I got here. Everything seemed so fast, like a car accident, I never knew what hit me.

I feel like I am living in a cage. Everywhere I look, I see a dead end sign. I didn't know what to do, so I just let myself drift by, seeing where the tide would bring me.

However, the tide did not bring me anywhere. I just stayed where I was. I was frozen, in suspended animation. I always said tomorrow is another day, but what I did that day, I still do the day after.

I can only remember who I was before. I can only hear voices. Voices that was once uttered in accolade but was never heard by me again.

I have wasted a lot of years. I look at the mirror and I see that I am already old. I am no longer that proud young man who once stood tall. All I am now is a remnant of a person no longer recognized. A fossil, even.

I have many people to blame for my misfortune. But in the end, I know that I am the only one responsible to the path where I led my life into. I was my own executioner.

I don't want to be this anymore.

I want to break free and escape where I am imprisoned right now. Even if I have to chew each one of the iron bars that locks me in right now, I will do it. After that, I will run as fast as I can, like a mad convict running away from the sanitarium.

And I will return. Mighty as was before. But this time, I'll stick my middle finger and give a fuck you sign to the world.

You can't get me. You will not get me anymore.